Why Changing Careers Fills Me With Relief One thing that I didn’t expect to feel after deciding to leave my program was relief and lightness. I thought I would feel regret and sadness, and I did and I do. But I also feel joy that all the things I worried about my program and my … Continue reading Looking Forward to My New Work Future
Category: Shame
Four Ways I Do Things Differently
I’ve come to realize that in addition to the shower, I do my thinking (not just best, but most thinking) with my eyes closed. I don’t reflect well staring out a window or gazing at a wall. I don’t contemplate while eating my oatmeal. I usually read or watch TV while I eat (a habit … Continue reading Four Ways I Do Things Differently
My Wonky Jaw: A Story of My Anxiety Working Overtime
Instead of the relief and relaxed feeling I was hoping to feel after I passed my comprehensive exams, I’m dealing with jaw problems. The day before my oral defense I woke up with a sore jaw on my right side. I was able to talk so I just chalked it up to grinding in my … Continue reading My Wonky Jaw: A Story of My Anxiety Working Overtime
My Need for Reassurance Was A Source of Shame But Is Now a Source of Connection: Here is How
I don’t think it’s an accident that I started showing signs of OCD in my early preteen years, right around the time I entered middle school and started wearing a back brace part of the day, in addition to the nights, to correct my crooked spine. I was afraid of other illnesses and accidents happening … Continue reading My Need for Reassurance Was A Source of Shame But Is Now a Source of Connection: Here is How
