It’s rare for me to have an anxiety or OCD crisis nowadays. I see my therapist regularly. I have a medication regime that on the whole is working. I have changed a lot of things in my life to support my mental health. All of these things keep me fairly on an even keel. However, … Continue reading Anxiety Sneaks Up on Me
Category: Failing
Self-Care Hurts
Yesterday afternoon I was lying on the acupuncture bed, trying (and failing) not to wince when the acupuncturist lightly touched a tender muscle before putting in a needle. I had been traveling for family and was still stiff, sore, and knotted up after the long flights. I knew that I would feel better in the … Continue reading Self-Care Hurts
Looking Forward to My New Work Future
Why Changing Careers Fills Me With Relief One thing that I didn’t expect to feel after deciding to leave my program was relief and lightness. I thought I would feel regret and sadness, and I did and I do. But I also feel joy that all the things I worried about my program and my … Continue reading Looking Forward to My New Work Future
How I Am Practicing Doing Good Enough and Nothing More
I’ve been procrastinating writing this for a while. I finished my comprehensive exams and then orally defended them this past Friday. And not only was I exhausted, but my anxiety was at a peak as long with everything that came with it. I wrote six essays around fifteen double spaced pages each. Only one shorter … Continue reading How I Am Practicing Doing Good Enough and Nothing More
My Need for Reassurance Was A Source of Shame But Is Now a Source of Connection: Here is How
I don’t think it’s an accident that I started showing signs of OCD in my early preteen years, right around the time I entered middle school and started wearing a back brace part of the day, in addition to the nights, to correct my crooked spine. I was afraid of other illnesses and accidents happening … Continue reading My Need for Reassurance Was A Source of Shame But Is Now a Source of Connection: Here is How
